So I guess I kinda promised you guys that sooner or later, I'll reveal the big secret I mentioned in my earlier posts. Rather than hear it from rumours and hearsays, here are the photos that'll break the silence. Like the worst cliche ever made goes, "A picture speaks louder than a thousand words." So I must warn you guys, there is quite a lengthy post (that's probably more than a thousand words) after the pictures. And I would appreciate it if you take 5 minutes of your time to read it, even if it took me quite some time to write all of this.
Note, however: Before any of you complain on the noise of most photos, I took all of these using an iPhone. So that's pretty much the best and most valid reason I could ever give. And so, I do not apologize. Lol.
If you're still on "loading" mode, or if you have no idea what these photos signify, well, too bad for you. Loljk. These photos signify the mark of my being here in Singapore. Having arrived on the 18th of July, I've been here for almost a week now, with only about 5 people who know about it. And if any of you are asking why I'm here, I will be attending a Singapore university, which I will disclose as of now. *cringes, however, on the thought of studying in a local SG university*
Writing this post reminds me of my Tumblr days, circa two years ago. During those dark days of mine, I kept contemplating on how I badly wanted a one-way plane ticket away from my home country. And a one-way plane ride was what brought me here. To this country. To this university. To this majorly ambitious dream.
However, things have pretty much changed ever since those two years, albeit I changed ever since those two years. You see, during my senior year, I was so keen on attending Ateneo de Manila University. I was accepted, and had the course I thought I wanted; I was to become a true blue-blooded Atenean... until a sudden and crazy epiphany came, which of course, if you've been following this post, is to study abroad in Singapore.
Many friends and relatives have actually expressed their doubts about me getting accepted here. First of all, I do acknowledge the fact that local Singapore universities are really hard to get accepted into. Some say SG universities' admission is as rigid as an Ivy League's, so I had to keep to myself the whole journey and subtle transition from the Philippines to here to ward off those skeptics. Thus, I had to keep reminding myself to prove all of them wrong. And this post, however blatant or not you may think I sound right now, proves it. Ha, to all you skeptics! :p
The 18th of July will forever be a special day in my life. On that day, I was told by a flight steward who had quite a high-pitched voice that "Flight MI 588 bound for Singapore is now ready for boarding." I must be honest, that announcement has been haunting me ever since I arrived, even if one day I might be bound to travel in the same flight number/route. Things that occur the second time around are never the same as the first, most especially if those firsts hold special sentiments that literally change your life. And knowing that this flight safely brought me to where I am now, it just gives me goosebumps looking back on everything that has happened in my life. On how the dominant dark days have finally led me to a quite sunny day. On how I am finally becoming who I ought to be.
So I guess that's everything I could disseminate for now. I miss all my friends, all of whom will probably get angry or feel betrayed that I went here without telling them goodbye. But I did stick to my promise-- to not tell anyone until I've made it. But since I've finally made it, this is my compromise to those who still call me friend. And for the first time in my life, I have never felt this genuinely happy before. I really do like this feeling, even if it's such a rare one for me.
...and I swear in this friggin' moment, I truly feel infinite.